Shadowplay

Love lost

2009-07-14T07:45:00.001+02:00

In the eyes of a stranger
  her love was found
All my hopes perished
  and my soul was stunned
I cried in anger
  as much as in pain
  but also in joy
HER happiness remained...
But in the eyes of a stranger
  I lost my heart
Hers was captured
Mine was torn apart

Silent sister

2009-07-14T07:37:00.001+02:00

She’s my silent sister
The one that speak no more
Resting in my mind
As she’s a part of my soul
One but divided
Never to meet
She’s my silent sister
Eternal
Rest in peace

Förlorarna

2009-06-16T00:25:00.001+02:00

Våra andetag blir moln
Vilar som frost på våra sinnen
Av tiden fins inget kvar
Vi möter våran sista timme

Vi ser oss om i natten
Undrar vart känslorna tog vägen
Här inne fins inget kvar
Ingen mer passion som brinner

      Ditt blod i mina vener
      En önskan som blir lag
      Om vi förlorar
      Vad fins då kvar?

Våra andetag blir moln
Hårda ord blir svåra minnen
Av oss fins inget kvar
Om vi förlorar, vem vinner?

Superhjälte

2009-06-16T00:20:00.002+02:00

This and the following poem is realy song lyrics I wrote which are heavily influenced by the Swedish rock act Kent.

Ett stort svart hål i mitt hjärta
Där rimfrosten ritar sina mönster
En kyla utan dess like
I det vaccum som är min själ
Tystnat har musiken
Den puls som höll mig kvar
Ett stort svart hål i mitt sinne
Kylan från en grav
Återstår endast
Ett gråtande, sårat barn

      Jag är ingen man av stål
      Jag är ingen superhjälte
      Åldras år för varje tår
      Varje sekundlång timme

      Jag är ingen man av stål
      Jag är ingen superhjälte
      Bara summan av en massa sår
      Ett ensamt suddigt minne

Fetish II

2009-06-13T20:55:00.001+02:00

Nothing can touch the feeling
Of an accidental glance
When your lover wear her stockings
It makes you feel all warm
Your eyes caress the seaming
As she walk on by
She puts her hand upon her hip
And give a naughty smile
And then, as if she's lost all interest
She pulls up on her skirt
To adjust the garter strap a bit
A sight so beautiful it hurts
She gives me so much pleasure
And she plays the game so well
She's in truth perfection
From her I'll never stray

Interlude

2009-06-13T20:15:00.001+02:00

Nothing is, nothing at all
Nothing was, not even a star
Suddenly broken, thrown a spell
Born a world, one not so pale
From nothing to nothing
There's something in between
A world of emotions
Yet unseen

Älska

2009-05-29T02:45:00.000+02:00

Att kyssa hennes läppar
Smaka hennes kött
Höra blodet välla
Stilla vid hennes bröst
Att känna denna närhet
Fylld av värme och lust
En gåva få förunnat
Av vördnad är jag tyst
Hettan i passionen
Känslorna som styr
Detta är att älska
I henne är jag ny

Smekningar

2009-05-29T02:29:00.004+02:00

Today I'm going to make a exception to my "english only" rule and publish some of my Swedish work. I apologice in advance to my English readers.

Lätta fingrar leker

Smeker ömt din nakna kropp

Söker skänka njutning

Nå höjder du aldrig nått

Lätta läppar kysser

Hud som sammet len

Älskar dig min kvinna

VÅR passion är ren

Ligger vid din sida

Förundras över vad jag ser

Ingen är så vacker

Får mig så att längta efter mer

Lätta lockar faller

Ur ditt underbara hår

Jag smeker dem med njutning

Sen faller lätt en glädjens tår

Lätta läppar leker

Läker dina sår

Helar dig från rädsla

Vi är ett, vi två...

Mother

2009-05-24T00:52:00.000+02:00

Mother
Can you hear me?
Do you listen now?
Do you realise
How much you hurt me
Deserted me
In my hour of need
Did you care about the tears
How you inflicted fear
When you swore
With your last breath
Called me a whore
Mother
Can you hear me?
Do you feel the pain
All the wounds I've sustained
The scars on my soul
Caused by the one
Supposed to make me whole
Do you realise
How much I needed you
Hated you
Loathed you
Loved you
Through all the tears
Tried so hard
To please you

Lovestruck

2009-05-16T21:52:00.002+02:00

A fairy dance around me

Like a blessed ray of light

Her dress a haze of fabric

Twirling through the night

Blissfully forgetful

Seduced by the sight

I follow on blindly

Her love tonight is mine

And when she gaze upon me

Her eyes like star so bright

I pledge to her "forever"

Forever and my life

Breaking point

2009-05-15T14:09:00.002+02:00

Something must break
Something
   must
Been too long
To much pain
To much tension
So many
  tears
Holding on to
nothing?
Something must
Break
  It's all a haze
Screams fade to whispers
and everything grow fainter
Heart revving
Mouth dry
    why?
Feeling weaker
  Bleaker
a fake?
Something must break

Dark paths

2009-05-12T19:55:00.001+02:00

I walk on hidden paths
Where shadows dwell
and darkness my trail swallows
Lightly do I tread
Where ghosts wail
and nothing grows but sorrow
In the solitude of sinners
Shrouded in my pain
I walk alone forever
'till nothing more remains

For Igor

2009-05-05T20:40:00.006+02:00

R.I.P Igor
This is for Igor and all the loved ones gone before him.

Song: Bright eyes

May your paws always tread safely
  and let catnip edge your way
May birds and mice be plenty
  and you my pale hunter, find your prey
May your fur always be shiny
  and your whiskers always straight
In our hearts you'll live forever
However far you stray

May you purr and roll up closely
always be warm and safe
May your water always refresh you
  and your food always be to taste
And when you travel onwards
  and adventures awaits
In our hearts you'll have a home
Our loved furry friend

The raven

2009-05-04T06:48:00.003+02:00

Loke mentioned Edgar Allan Poe, so naturally I have to add something dark including a raven...

I'm the raven
the darkened heart
the spider
  and the cancer
the ruptured soul
  and all that's dark
I'm the hatred
disappointment
  and every single sin
the fear
  and all the nightmares
that dwell deep within
I'm the shadow
that follows you around
  and all the noises in the night
when no one is around
I'm every tear that falls
  and the pain that won't subside
your lost hopes and desires
  and all that's been denied
so when the final hour comes
  and you're waiting by the gates
I will be the reaper
showing you the way

Queen L

2009-05-04T05:58:00.002+02:00

Far across the oceans
Across the stormy seas
There among the mountains
In the deepest woods she sleeps
The queen of all desires
And the ruler of my heart
Closer than my bathed breath
And yet, a world apart

Far across the oceans
Across the stormy seas
There she walk in shadows
For mortals not to see
In spellbound fascination
For her arms I reach
But far to great the distance
Between my love and me

Far across the oceans
Across the stormy seas
I found my queen and lost my heart
And now for love I bleed...

Fetish I

2009-05-01T22:00:00.002+02:00

Heavy breathing

Lace and skin

Heated passion

Silky sin

Tongues and fingers

Flesh, my fall

Heavenly angel

Give me it all

Closeness

2009-04-30T19:29:00.001+02:00

Come closer
Closer still
Let me hold you
Feel the thrill
Your body next to mine
The heated breath of passion
Closely intertwined
Natural attraction
Come closer
Closer still
Tonight there’s no distractions
Just you and me
And the search for satisfaction...

Empathy

2009-04-30T19:15:00.002+02:00

Words so gentle
Touches so deep
Words of forgiveness
Is what we all need
Understanding is demanding
And is hard to learn
But will be worth the price
For whom it concerns

Hatred

2009-04-28T22:43:00.005+02:00

Please don't take this entry to serious, it's a playfull, although dark, play with words and imagery.

Your carcass is corroded
  Rotten to the core
I hate your very being
  From the depths of my soul
And to think we once were lovers
  Numbs my mind
To have looked to you for beauty?
  Surely, I must have been blind
Now by your grave deserted
  I smile within my mind
Your carcass so corroded
  Victory is mine!

Aftermath

2009-04-28T22:30:00.003+02:00

Intimidating silence
The lack of words to say
Realisation
What happened
How did we go so astray
Lips sealed
Nothing to do but pray
This intimidating silence
Is all that remains

Unfaithful

2009-04-28T00:17:00.002+02:00

One given, one lost
Once used ones trust
Never more, never again
Lost a feeling, lost a friend
One kiss, one I miss
One to much, I lost her trust
Never more, never again
Lost a lover, lost in vain

The drugs don't work

2009-04-28T00:10:00.002+02:00

Where does it end when the drugs won't calm you
Where do you go to find some relief
What can you say when no one listens
What can you do to still those needs
Where can I go to find some answers
Where can I hide from the pain I feel
Will I ever find a solution
Find someone my soul to heal...

Dance macabre

2009-04-25T02:27:00.005+02:00

These lyrics was heavily inspired by The Sisters of Mercy.

Barbed wire kisses
Under a black moonless sky
Your fear growing in strength
Behind a heroin induced smile
The Neon flickers madly
As you kiss the razors edge
Tomorrow is so distant
And tonight's a kiss away

Release or condemnation
You sing, "Come what may"
And dive into the night
And its all engulfing waves
Tonight we kiss the wire
And hope tomorrow never comes
Far too far salvation
We cry "Death, come take us home…"

Balkan

2009-04-25T02:19:00.003+02:00

This is an old poem of mine from the chaotic days of the balkan wars.

A voice whispers a prayer
A man cries by a grave
A boy misses his sister
And it´s just another day
All is total chaos
The World is in dismay
But for the children of Bosnia
It´s life
The Ordinary way

Phoenix

2009-04-22T15:48:00.005+02:00

    Burn away the memories
    Burn away the stains
    Sift through the ashes
    Find what hope remains
    Light a cleansing fire
    And the flames will show the way
    Like the bird of Phoenix
    Your soul will shine again

Without

2009-04-21T22:46:00.001+02:00

What am I
So small and so pale
What am I
Here beneath your shadow
Nothing but naked
Caressed by thorns
Silent in frustration
All the fears of the newly born
What am I
If I’m all alone
What am I
Here beneath your shadow

The wall

2009-04-20T11:42:00.006+02:00

    In solitude we stand
    And build the wall even higher
    Denying every thought and dream
    As if that would still our desires
    We deny ourselves the pleasure
    Of a single pleasant truth
    In fear of disappointment
    In fear of being used
    In solitude we stand
    And one by one we fall
    Caught behind a mask
    Caught behind the wall

Haunting need

2009-04-18T15:59:00.003+02:00

Like the spiders kiss of poison
Your tongue inside of me
Feels like benefaction
It fills my inner needs
Slipping inside out a dream
I search for unfound inner mean
With senses cleared, my mind blown out
I kiss the spider,
I have no doubt

Perfect lovers

2009-04-18T12:41:00.002+02:00

Fingers dancing down my spine
And the salty taste of passion
Bodies closely intertwined
And the search for satisfaction
The heat of flesh when bodies meet
Unreachable by distractions
Between the sheets, you and me
We aspire for perfection

Little love

2009-04-17T21:14:00.006+02:00

Little love
My sweet surrender
My beating heart
Will be remembered

Little love
My soul amender
Heaven sent her
To make me whole

Little love
My one desire
Takes me higher
Makes me pure

Little love
My one and only
When I'm lonely
You're all I know

Gathering storm clouds

2009-04-17T19:20:00.004+02:00

Again the storms are brewing
Gathering clouds smears the moon
Shaking from the cold within
A hand held out to shield from gloom
This, the constant chaos
The howling of a tainted soul
So distant now what hope was growing
So distant
Now my heart grows cold
And with the rain, the searing pain
The tears that leave you hollow
Comes nothing but despair
Again
The storms are brewing...