July 14, 2009

Love lost

In the eyes of a stranger
  her love was found
All my hopes perished
  and my soul was stunned
I cried in anger
  as much as in pain
  but also in joy
HER happiness remained...
But in the eyes of a stranger
  I lost my heart
Hers was captured
Mine was torn apart


Silent sister

She’s my silent sister
The one that speak no more
Resting in my mind
As she’s a part of my soul
One but divided
Never to meet
She’s my silent sister
Rest in peace

June 16, 2009


Våra andetag blir moln
Vilar som frost på våra sinnen
Av tiden fins inget kvar
Vi möter våran sista timme

Vi ser oss om i natten
Undrar vart känslorna tog vägen
Här inne fins inget kvar
Ingen mer passion som brinner

      Ditt blod i mina vener
      En önskan som blir lag
      Om vi förlorar
      Vad fins då kvar?

Våra andetag blir moln
Hårda ord blir svåra minnen
Av oss fins inget kvar
Om vi förlorar, vem vinner?



This and the following poem is realy song lyrics I wrote which are heavily influenced by the Swedish rock act Kent.

Ett stort svart hål i mitt hjärta
Där rimfrosten ritar sina mönster
En kyla utan dess like
I det vaccum som är min själ
Tystnat har musiken
Den puls som höll mig kvar
Ett stort svart hål i mitt sinne
Kylan från en grav
Återstår endast
Ett gråtande, sårat barn

      Jag är ingen man av stål
      Jag är ingen superhjälte
      Åldras år för varje tår
      Varje sekundlång timme

      Jag är ingen man av stål
      Jag är ingen superhjälte
      Bara summan av en massa sår
      Ett ensamt suddigt minne

June 13, 2009

Fetish II

Nothing can touch the feeling
Of an accidental glance
When your lover wear her stockings
It makes you feel all warm
Your eyes caress the seaming
As she walk on by
She puts her hand upon her hip
And give a naughty smile
And then, as if she's lost all interest
She pulls up on her skirt
To adjust the garter strap a bit
A sight so beautiful it hurts
She gives me so much pleasure
And she plays the game so well
She's in truth perfection
From her I'll never stray


Nothing is, nothing at all
Nothing was, not even a star
Suddenly broken, thrown a spell
Born a world, one not so pale
From nothing to nothing
There's something in between
A world of emotions
Yet unseen

May 29, 2009


Att kyssa hennes läppar
Smaka hennes kött
Höra blodet välla
Stilla vid hennes bröst
Att känna denna närhet
Fylld av värme och lust
En gåva få förunnat
Av vördnad är jag tyst
Hettan i passionen
Känslorna som styr
Detta är att älska
I henne är jag ny


Today I'm going to make a exception to my "english only" rule and publish some of my Swedish work. I apologice in advance to my English readers.

Lätta fingrar leker
Smeker ömt din nakna kropp
Söker skänka njutning
Nå höjder du aldrig nått
Lätta läppar kysser
Hud som sammet len
Älskar dig min kvinna
VÅR passion är ren
Ligger vid din sida
Förundras över vad jag ser
Ingen är så vacker
Får mig så att längta efter mer
Lätta lockar faller
Ur ditt underbara hår
Jag smeker dem med njutning
Sen faller lätt en glädjens tår
Lätta läppar leker
Läker dina sår
Helar dig från rädsla
Vi är ett, vi två...

May 24, 2009


Can you hear me?
Do you listen now?
Do you realise
How much you hurt me
Deserted me
In my hour of need
Did you care about the tears
How you inflicted fear
When you swore
With your last breath
Called me a whore
Can you hear me?
Do you feel the pain
All the wounds I've sustained
The scars on my soul
Caused by the one
Supposed to make me whole
Do you realise
How much I needed you
Hated you
Loathed you
Loved you
Through all the tears
Tried so hard
To please you

May 16, 2009


A fairy dance around me
Like a blessed ray of light
Her dress a haze of fabric
Twirling through the night
Blissfully forgetful
Seduced by the sight
I follow on blindly
Her love tonight is mine
And when she gaze upon me
Her eyes like star so bright
I pledge to her "forever"
Forever and my life

May 15, 2009

Breaking point

Something must break
Been too long
To much pain
 To much tension
So many
Holding on to
Something must
  It's all a haze
Screams fade to whispers
and everything grow fainter
Heart revving
Mouth dry
Feeling weaker
a fake?
Something must break

May 12, 2009

Dark paths

I walk on hidden paths
Where shadows dwell
and darkness my trail swallows
Lightly do I tread
Where ghosts wail
and nothing grows but sorrow
In the solitude of sinners
Shrouded in my pain
I walk alone forever
'till nothing more remains

May 05, 2009

For Igor

R.I.P Igor
This is for Igor and all the loved ones gone before him.

Song: Bright eyes

May your paws always tread safely
  and let catnip edge your way
May birds and mice be plenty
  and you my pale hunter, find your prey
May your fur always be shiny
  and your whiskers always straight
In our hearts you'll live forever
However far you stray

May you purr and roll up closely
always be warm and safe
May your water always refresh you
  and your food always be to taste
And when you travel onwards
  and adventures awaits
In our hearts you'll have a home
Our loved furry friend

May 04, 2009

The raven

Loke mentioned Edgar Allan Poe, so naturally I have to add something dark including a raven...

I'm the raven
the darkened heart
the spider
  and the cancer
the ruptured soul
  and all that's dark
I'm the hatred
  and every single sin
the fear
  and all the nightmares
that dwell deep within
I'm the shadow
that follows you around
  and all the noises in the night
when no one is around
I'm every tear that falls
  and the pain that won't subside
your lost hopes and desires
  and all that's been denied
so when the final hour comes
  and you're waiting by the gates
I will be the reaper
showing you the way

Queen L

Far across the oceans
Across the stormy seas
There among the mountains
In the deepest woods she sleeps
The queen of all desires
And the ruler of my heart
Closer than my bathed breath
And yet, a world apart

Far across the oceans
Across the stormy seas
There she walk in shadows
For mortals not to see
In spellbound fascination
For her arms I reach
But far to great the distance
Between my love and me

Far across the oceans
Across the stormy seas
I found my queen and lost my heart
And now for love I bleed...

May 01, 2009

Fetish I

Heavy breathing
Lace and skin
Heated passion
Silky sin
Tongues and fingers
Flesh, my fall
Heavenly angel
Give me it all

April 30, 2009


Come closer
Closer still
Let me hold you
Feel the thrill
Your body next to mine
The heated breath of passion
Closely intertwined
Natural attraction
Come closer
Closer still
Tonight there’s no distractions
Just you and me
And the search for satisfaction...


Words so gentle
Touches so deep
Words of forgiveness
Is what we all need
Understanding is demanding
And is hard to learn
But will be worth the price
For whom it concerns

April 28, 2009


Please don't take this entry to serious, it's a playfull, although dark, play with words and imagery.

Your carcass is corroded
  Rotten to the core
I hate your very being
  From the depths of my soul
And to think we once were lovers
  Numbs my mind
To have looked to you for beauty?
  Surely, I must have been blind
Now by your grave deserted
  I smile within my mind
Your carcass so corroded
  Victory is mine!


Intimidating silence
The lack of words to say
What happened
How did we go so astray
   Lips sealed
Nothing to do but pray
This intimidating silence
Is all that remains


One given, one lost
Once used ones trust
Never more, never again
Lost a feeling, lost a friend
One kiss, one I miss
One to much, I lost her trust
Never more, never again
Lost a lover, lost in vain

The drugs don't work

Where does it end when the drugs won't calm you
Where do you go to find some relief
What can you say when no one listens
What can you do to still those needs
Where can I go to find some answers
Where can I hide from the pain I feel
Will I ever find a solution
Find someone my soul to heal...

April 25, 2009

Dance macabre

These lyrics was heavily inspired by The Sisters of Mercy.

Barbed wire kisses
Under a black moonless sky
Your fear growing in strength
Behind a heroin induced smile
The Neon flickers madly
As you kiss the razors edge
Tomorrow is so distant
And tonight's a kiss away

Release or condemnation
You sing, "Come what may"
And dive into the night
And its all engulfing waves
Tonight we kiss the wire
And hope tomorrow never comes
Far too far salvation
We cry "Death, come take us home…"



This is an old poem of mine from the chaotic days of the balkan wars.
A voice whispers a prayer
A man cries by a grave
A boy misses his sister
And it´s just another day
All is total chaos
The World is in dismay
But for the children of Bosnia
It´s life
   The Ordinary way

April 22, 2009


    Burn away the memories
    Burn away the stains
    Sift through the ashes
    Find what hope remains
    Light a cleansing fire
    And the flames will show the way
    Like the bird of Phoenix
    Your soul will shine again


April 21, 2009


What am I
So small and so pale
What am I
Here beneath your shadow
Nothing but naked
Caressed by thorns
Silent in frustration
All the fears of the newly born
What am I
If I’m all alone
What am I
Here beneath your shadow


April 20, 2009

The wall

    In solitude we stand
    And build the wall even higher
    Denying every thought and dream
    As if that would still our desires
    We deny ourselves the pleasure
    Of a single pleasant truth
    In fear of disappointment
    In fear of being used
    In solitude we stand
    And one by one we fall
    Caught behind a mask
    Caught behind the wall

April 18, 2009

Haunting need

Like the spiders kiss of poison
Your tongue inside of me
Feels like benefaction
It fills my inner needs
Slipping inside out a dream
I search for unfound inner mean
With senses cleared, my mind blown out
I kiss the spider,
    I have no doubt


Perfect lovers

Fingers dancing down my spine
And the salty taste of passion
Bodies closely intertwined
And the search for satisfaction
The heat of flesh when bodies meet
Unreachable by distractions
Between the sheets, you and me
We aspire for perfection

April 17, 2009

Little love

Little love
 My sweet surrender
My beating heart
 Will be remembered

Little love
 My soul amender
Heaven sent her
 To make me whole

Little love
 My one desire
Takes me higher
 Makes me pure

Little love
 My one and only
When I'm lonely
 You're all I know


Gathering storm clouds

Again the storms are brewing
Gathering clouds smears the moon
Shaking from the cold within
A hand held out to shield from gloom
This, the constant chaos
The howling of a tainted soul
So distant now what hope was growing
So distant
Now my heart grows cold
And with the rain, the searing pain
The tears that leave you hollow
Comes nothing but despair
The storms are brewing...